Tomorrow is Father's day. A day when we remember or honor dads all over the world. Father's day is not like mother's day, where there are roses, chocolates, lots of stuff that we can give. Dad's day is more subdued. No colorful decorations in the mall or other mushy stuff.
I AM DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL. Yeah, I'm not little anymore, but in my heart i have always been. I don't know. I can pour my heart out to him. Share my views without being afraid. You see, since I was born, my dad has been working in the Middle East. He's away 10 months of every year. I could say, I got used to it already, but everytime he goes even at my age now I still hold back the tears. Because I have to wait ten months again to see him, to touch him, to hug him. If you would add all the days that I have spent with my dad, it wouldn't total five years of my life. This does not include the times when I was living away from them. Sometimes I feel guilty of not spending a lot of quality time when he's here. But even though he's absent most of the time, i didn't feel that I'm neglected or something. I know he's always been there, thinking of our family. Trying to fight homesickness. His sacrifice for us is greater than any of member of our family combined. He's alone during holidays. The Christmases that he missed, the new years, the birthdays. I know it hurt him when he couldn't spend it with us. As a father, he would just bear it all just to provide for us. I remember us sending voice tapes back in the 80's so just he could hear our voice because we don't have a phone in our place yet. I remember lots of letters that we exchanged. I remember when he first found out that I already had a boyfriend. I know it broke his heart, but all he said was "whatever makes you happy". Up to this day, as long as he can give it, and whatever makes us happy, he doesn't deny it to us. When I cried my heart out because I failed the exams, he held me and reassured me that everything will be alright. When he found out that my sister is pregnant, I can see that he's so happy, not angry, because he's been waiting for it. I know he can't wait to come home already, but he's still enduring and preparing for his retirement. Should you read this dad, I love you so much and I missed you!
And to all the dads out there specially my uncles, cousins,Nilo(my bro in-law), Tito Andy, Aries, Dominic, all of my daddy friends. I salute you, keep up the good work! Tomorrow is your day! May God give you all that you need to make your family as strong as it will ever be.
3 comments:
Very sweet Hazel. I love my dad so much I cant imagine my life without him. I know how you feel. Take care
Very very sweet Hazel. I loved reading your post, it makes me think of what my life could have been with my father. My mom did remarry and I have an incredible step father named Jessie. I enjoyed reliving your childhood through your post.
Love,
Christle
Hazel,
U make me cry bcuz u remind me of my Apay that's how we all call our Father. I'm also Daddy's girl n the carbon copy of him as per my lolo n lola, aunts n uncles from his side of the family. I remember Amay telling me that if I was a boy I will a Jr. And Lisa will always be his dad little girl. Happy Father's Day to your Dad Philip n to my son-in law Dominic, my nephew Aries and my loving husband Andy.
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