I'm back! :)

It's been a while since I posted something here. I miss blogging, but the past months had been hectic. After the bar, I rested and looked for a job.. kinda bummed around for a while. Then I helped my sister prepare for her baby. I was on top of it all. Renovations were made in their house for the baby, there were doctor's appointments to go through. I have to be there because I had to drive her around. Then on November 20 the big day arrived. After 48 hours of labor (which its seems that I'm experiencing the pain at the same time :) Baby Nigel was born. He was 7lbs.; a cute baby and everyone was so excited to hold him. I loved him the first time I saw him. He seemed to be my lucky charm because just a week after he was born a job offer came and the rest is history. Now I have a job, I work at a call center. Its a bit unrelated to what I studied in law school but they are going to put me in an account which at least I am familiar with... insurance. At least I am not a bum anymore. :) I am looking forward to my first pay check ever! I would probably frame it! hahaha! Christmas was spent just with family because I have to work the day after. New year is coming and I am wishing everyone good health and abundant blessings. Take Care!

Finally its over!

The Bar exams is finally over. Last Sunday was the last day of the exam. I'm glad I made it in one piece, with all the trials I had to go through. Thank God I made it. Now its the agony of waiting again. I do really hope that this is the time for me. That this time I made it. Still pray for me friends. Have a nice week! :)

birthday

I just turn 29 last september 25... yes, 29, i'm on my last year on my twenties. I feel old and young. Confusing right? I think back from what happened to me in the years past, of course there are some things I wish I did but didn't maybe because i was too afraid to take risks. Now I'm in a point of my life again asking myself: WHAT NOW? There's things I want to do, places I want to see, things I wanna say. But come to think of it although sometimes i look back to those things that I wasn't able to do, there are no regrets because it made me who I am today. But now there is a vow I gave to myself, that I wouldn't let any opportunity pass, I would take risks, and I don't want to have "what ifs" in my life. I thank God for the 29 wonderful years he gave me. Friends that he let pass my way, and a family that loves me. Here are some photos of my birthday "party" we just had some pizza and just took photos for posterity. :)

2 sundays...

Wow! Two sundays of the grueling bar exams passed already and i feel like my brain is reduced to dust. The exam is so hard (well i don't expect it to be easy) its really exhausting after I finish each subject. There's two more sunday left. I need all the strength i have. Fate is really testing me, a few days before the 1st sunday i was diagnosed with stress related vertigo. My world is really spinning literally. I couldn't get up, good thing, Jas was there, he brought me to the ER. Anyway, everything is fine now. I still get dizzy specially when i shift position when im lying down. I'm taking meds for it now. I hope this is not a permanent thing. So thats about what happened. I still need your prayers. 

love,

Hazel

11 names

Rules: List the names that your are called by and the name people who call you by these names. Tag others to do the same thing, paste the link of your entry on their guestbooks.

GO!

1. Hazel : my given name, and yes wala na sya kadugtong pa...

2. Hazelina: pag galit na si mami (tago na ko)

3. Yeyen : old one nung bulol pa ang cousin ko

4. H : ng natutong tamarin ang mga kaibigan ko, short na name ko pinaigsi pa

5. Hazel Marie : pang-asar lang ng isang friend ko

6. Ha-zel : tawag nung isang prof ko sa akin

7. Hazel Muhammad : pang-asar ni kamote sa akin

8. Haz/Haze : pag naglalambing friends ko

9. Pokley : handle ko nung nagradyo pa ko (la pa kasi cell nun)

10. Hoy : pag nagpapakapinoy sila at ayaw gamitin ang name ko.

11. Ate H : call ng friends ko na younger or feeling young kahit older sila sa akin ate tawag sakin. hmppp!

yun lang po...

Poem

Just a simple poem i wrote.. Can't get the first line out of my head so i decided to continue and made into a poem. Sounds mushy and corny i know. creativity just hits you when you don't expect it.hehe! Friends leave comments. :)

JUST A DREAM

by: me :)

Mind Racing

Heart Pounding

Saw you smiling...

waiting...

anticipating...

you walked towards me...

Met you halfway

wrapped each other

in a tight embrace...

Time stopped

as lips locked

nobody even looked

at the clock...

suddenly..

the ground shook!

eyes flew open

somebody is staring!

Realized,

its not what it seems...

coz its only but a

DREAM...

Tick-Tock

Time is ticking... I'm only three weeks away from the first exam day of the bar. I am excited as well as extremely scared. Memories of the previous exam keep flooding my head. I'm not having nightmares of it yet but its hard to sleep at night lately. The other week when I went to church the priest talked of fears and mentioned that our greatest fear is the fear of the unknown. And he's correct. We are all looking forward for a bright future but at the same time afraid of what's going to be there. And this week the priest talked about us sometimes thinking that God doesn't hear our prayers, but He does, only that he doesn't give us what we want when He knows its not best for us. And last night while I was watching Evan Almighty, this line caught my attention ''when someone prays for patience, do you think God gives him patience? He gives him the opportunity to be patient, and when someone asked for courage, He gives him the opportunity to be courageous". Its so true, God gives all of us opportunities, sometimes we don't know that those moments are the ones we prayed for, He just give it to us in a different package. The upcoming bar is an opportunity that is given to me, its going to be difficult again for sure.  The next three weeks will be crazy, tempers will be flaring, patience worn thin, and sanity held by threads. I know all of you my friends and loved ones are rooting for me once again. Your prayers and support will keep me strong. 

love,

Hazel

White Avenue

Had a great time last night with friends. They are all way much younger than me coz they're originally friends of my brother and then became my friends. We went to a dance club. (My first time actually.. yeah I know I don't have a life... Hehe!) I am not the kind who's really into those, but just to be with friends I'll try anything. The crowd was thumping! Anyway, even though the crowd was too young for my taste, I still had a great time. We left the club and then went to a resto/bar to eat. I think I'll feel the toll of the high heels tomorrow. Wish me and my old body luck. Hehe! Have a great week ahead. 

Love,

Hazel

more photos...

frustrated photographer...

Hi Lisa and Christle! Here are some pics I took in my room when I was so bored. The subjects are just whatever that came to my mind... I took these photos using my sister's ixus. I wish i had a dslr so i could capture the droplets of rain outside my window. The pic of the building is what is see everyday outside. I edited it using iphoto Christle. I haven't got time to put photoshop in my mac. You know how it is with pc's and mac. ;) Hope you like it girls. Both of you are my mentors in photography. Take care!

Thank God!!!

The day started out just right when I went to the mall to meet my friends and got some things I needed. But on my way home, as I was riding an FX (a public transport here) two guys boarded the back seats. It was raining, then not 5 minutes passed they declared a hold-up. I was really so shocked. They have knives, I thought they are going to rob us all. But they didn't, they just got the bags of the passengers sitting mere inches away from me. Thank God I was spared and the other passengers. The 2 ladies at the back were not lucky. The thugs got their bags and everything in it. I was so afraid not for just my belongings but for my safety of course. God was really watching over me because a few minutes before the thugs boarded, no one was sitting beside me. I'm glad two persons did before them. If not, the other guy would have seated beside me and who knows what happened. Praise HIM!! I pray that all my family and friends are kept away from harm, and may the angels watch over all of us.

just thankful,

Hazel

Some pics from last week

Dark Knight at IMAX

Before the movie starts

After Pinning Dinner

Visiting Bulacan

quotes...

Rollercoaster

Hey there! its been a while... Well, nothing so exciting is happening in my life right now. I'm still studying for the exams and stressing from it! Been through a roller coaster of emotions lately.. Frustrations sometimes get a grip on me, followed by a tinge of depression and a dash of panic but not too much not to bounce back again. All I need is to get away for a bit.. My wallet is usually the one that suffers when I go through this time. Because I will need major retail therapy! Hahaha! Don't worry guys, I'm OK now. There's nothing like a bit of shopping to cure the blues. Right girls? Anyway, i hope everybody have a great weekend. :)

Hidden Meaning behind my name...

I don't know who made this but, its kinda creepy coz some of them are true. :)

What Hazel Means

You are truly an original person. You have amazing ideas, and the power to carry them out. Success comes rather easily for you... especially in business and academia. Some people find you to be selfish and a bit overbearing. You're a strong person. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are incredibly wise and perceptive. You have a lot of life experience. You are a natural peacemaker, and you are especially good at helping others get along. But keeping the peace in your own life is not easy. You see things very differently, and it's hard to get you to budge. You are friendly, charming, and warm. You get along with almost everyone. You work hard not to rock the boat. Your easy going attitude brings people together. At times, you can be a little flaky and irresponsible. But for the important things, you pull it together. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is.

What's Your Name's Hidden Meaning?

Pics from 2 weddings

My Sister's wedding

cousin JR n me

the shy first wedded kiss (hehe! my mom was at the back!)

My bestfriend's wedding

my friend playing with the cam

after the eating galore

my bestfriends

Yup! I've been in two weddings last month. I had fun!
The food was great, the company better, and the
moments... priceless!

Motivation

The week that was.. :p

So last sunday, me and jason went to see "the hulk" at the midtown mall. We ate at Wham! Burgers (my new fave burgers) before going in the cinema and clowned around with some of the displays outside. It was fun. Then on thursday I went home to Bulacan to attend the civil wedding of my sister. The ceremony was nice, but boy, she was doing the bridezilla on me that morning! hahaha!! I've missed our house because I've been away almost two months now I guess. I played with ziggy. He's a fatty dog now. Then I went back the same day in manila to go back to the reviewing part of my life. I was just reading, check email, text, nap, cook, read, hang out a bit with jason, read, sleep. Very exciting right? :p And now its a sunday again, officially its rainy season here in the Philippines. Woke up this morning and there is a power outage. Then there is flood on the streets. I'm glad we have food here in the apartment or else i will be wading thru the filthy floodwaters of Sampaloc, Manila! Yuck! I hope the rain stops and the flood recedes coz I have to attend my bestfriend's wedding tomorrow. Yes, two weddings in a week (makes me want to contemplate on my singleness harhar!) Anyway, hope everybody had a great week. Take Care everyone!!!!

Daddy's little Girl

      Tomorrow is Father's day. A day when we remember or honor dads all over the world. Father's day is not like mother's day, where there are roses, chocolates, lots of stuff that we can give. Dad's day is more subdued. No colorful decorations in the mall or other mushy stuff. 

      I AM DADDY'S LITTLE GIRL. Yeah, I'm not little anymore, but in my heart i have always been. I don't know. I can pour my heart out to him. Share my views without being afraid. You see, since I was born, my dad has been working in the Middle East. He's away 10 months of every year. I could say, I got used to it already, but everytime he goes even at my age now I still hold back the tears. Because I have to wait ten months again to see him, to touch him, to hug him. If you would add all the days that I have spent with my dad, it wouldn't total five years of my life. This does not include the times when I was living away from them. Sometimes I feel guilty of not spending a lot of quality time when he's here. But even though he's absent most of the time, i didn't feel that I'm neglected or something. I know he's always been there, thinking of our family. Trying to fight homesickness. His sacrifice for us is greater than any of member of our family combined. He's alone during holidays. The Christmases that he missed, the new years, the birthdays. I know it hurt him when he couldn't spend it with us. As a father, he would just bear it all just to provide for us. I remember us sending voice tapes back in the 80's so just he could hear our voice because we don't have a phone in our place yet.  I remember lots of letters that we exchanged. I remember when he first found out that I already had a boyfriend. I know it broke his heart, but all he said was "whatever makes you happy". Up to this day, as long as he can give it, and whatever makes us happy, he doesn't deny it to us. When I cried my heart out because I failed the exams, he held me and reassured me that everything will be alright. When he found out that my sister is pregnant, I can see that he's so happy, not angry, because he's been waiting for it. I know he can't wait to come home already, but he's still enduring and preparing for his retirement. Should you read this dad, I love you so much and I missed you!

       And to all the dads out there specially my uncles, cousins,Nilo(my bro in-law), Tito Andy, Aries, Dominic, all of my daddy friends. I salute you, keep up the good work! Tomorrow is your day! May God give you all that you need to make your family as strong as it will ever be. 

Hung Over

Got a good sleep last night. With the aid of 3 bottles of Red Horse beer. I think the horse kicked my head. I kinda feel some pain in the morning. But nothing bad. Went out with some classmates to have some drinks since we have no scheduled class today. So we are free to stay up late last night. Went to Pier One and grabbed a couple of bottles. Feels good to forget the worries that's bothering my mind even for one night. I think I hit the bed sleeping when I came home. Hehe! Oh well, back to the real world. ;)

Bangkeros

Jason and Simon trying the small bangka at carabao island... oops! hehe!

Missed by a hair!

Its a humbling experience going back to the Supreme Court and claiming my grade. I was so nervous when I went there. When I got the envelope, my hands were shaking. Its like announcing the winner in an awards night. Only in my case, I'm opening the envelope that sealed my fate. When I opened it, I looked at my grades and thought that my grades aren't that bad. What was funny is I didn't see the weighted average at the bottom and I'm starting to compute the damn grade in my head! Glad my bestfriend grabbed the paper and pointed the average to me. Damn! I missed it by a hair! I was .25 points short of being a lawyer! I was really disappointed in me. But when I get to compose myself, I said to myself, yeah maybe God really has better plans. I really need to work harder this time. And please include me in your prayers. :)

sleep deprived

Can't sleep... My mind's been going 100-mph since this afternoon. My mind has been filled with mostly memories from the past, some daydreaming of what will happen in the future, people I miss most, friends I'm not in touch with anymore, my review, of how I will remember 5 years worth of study in 3 months time, dreading september (again!), what I will eat for breakfast, lunch, and dinner tomorrow, when will I be able to start my workout, when will the bills be arriving, my allowance... Whew! thats a lot right? Sometimes my mind is like that and I'm having difficulty concentrating. Sometimes I'm wondering do I need professional help. And my next door neighbor is not helping me concentrate either. When they play music they do it as if there is no tomorrow, without any care that the paper thin walls between us is well, paper thin! hahaha! I think I'm going crazy! (kidding!) I told them once to at least turn down the volume (is that too much to ask!?) I just don't want to confront them again. That's just me... very patient.. none confrontational, the pacifist.. I guess it the Libra side of me. Gosh, its 2am and I am seriously craving for some Wham! burger. :( Overall my week is fine, my mom sent home-cooked food yesterday. SO GOOD! I got new pairs of trainers. (but I can't jog coz its raining in the morning) Met up with my girlfriends. The rest was spent studying and contemplating life. :)

Till my next post. Have a great week ahead!

ziggy the wonder dog

ziggy with his daddy

playing with teddy

look dad i'm driving!

ziggy getting ready to take on his prey! hehe!

hey ziggy! thats my teddy! my bff gave that to me!

New Chapter

It's been a while since I had a post... Been busy with school and settling in the apartment. I realized that time flies so fast. My sister's going to get married and soon be a mom. Whoa! I was the first one to know that there's a bun in the oven and it's so hard to keep the secret for a while. I'm just relieved that they told my parents already and made plans for marriage. I remember my sister when she was little. She's a precocious kid. Running around here and there. Climbing trees, playing in dirty water (yuck!), going out and about butt naked.Hahaha! She's the tiger cub of the family as she was always growling at us during her tweens days up until now. I'm five years older that her so there are moments where we had misunderstandings. Why Ate can do this, do that, have this, have that. And there are times that I envy her because she can do whatever she wants and lived an adventurous life. I'm a late bloomer you know. I envy her also coz she can eat all the rice and food she wants and not gain a pound. (well, don't we all envy people like that). I think we all have a love-hate relationships with our sister and also our mother sometimes. We are ok now... I think when she reached a certain age, she realize where I was coming from. And now, she's going to start a new chapter of her life. I'm excited to see my nephew/niece in December! And I better start getting in shape so I could wear a nice gown on her wedding. If ever you read this sis, I love you. I'm always here for you!

Back to school

After all the vacationing I did the past three weeks I finally went back to review school. I haven't finished unpacking my things in the apartment but I'm slowly getting there. Its time to hit the books once again. I bet by the end of the review I have to change the lens of my spectacles again. Anyways, wish me luck. Have a nice week everyone!

Boracay Getaway

I went to Boracay for a another beach getaway this time with my family. Its the first time me and my family went on a vacation outside Luzon. We all had fun. My parents acted like a young couple again. Me and my siblings gave them the space they need. My cousin Malou is also with us. We had a great time. We shopped for lots of trinkets to bring home. We also rented a boat to go island hopping and snorkeling. Thats my favorite part of the vacation. I'm glad we bought and underwater case for the cam. We had great underwater shots. This is the last leg of my summer vacation. For next week I will go back to books again to review for the Bar. Wish me luck! Till my next blog. :)